**b4 you read this, please do not get offended if you are my friend because this is about how i feel deep inside and not directedd to any of my existence friends.......
first of all, wat is 'friendship'? cudn't quite know wat it is... to understand about the mysterious 'word', i read this poetry..
The best of friends,
Can change a frown,
Into a smile,
when you feel down.
The best of friends,
Will understand,
Your little trials,
And lend a hand.
The best of friends,
Will always share,
Your secret dreams,
Because they care.
The best of friends,
Worth more than gold,
Give all the love,
A heart can hold.
wow...i hurt me everytime i read this poem... how lucky to have a best friend.. i must admit i have never had a friend that i could share every single secrets with and trust her fully to keep it, be myself without hiding any of my habits and know dat she will always be my friend, not afraid to call her at 4 in the morning even if the problem is so small, always be there for me through thick and thin, and much much more..
i have a lot of VERY CLOSE friends and i LOVE them so much..
some of them i treated like my best friend but they never treated me like one..
i have faced BETRAYAL, LIES and BROKEN friendships before.. so i'm so scared to trust or count on someone.. i was too afraid that the horrible feeling of despair comes to haunt me..
yup.. my life is just sad.. i heard alot of people say dat.. welll, i think so too.. my life is just sad..
i dun have a bestfriend to pour every single thoughts to. whenever i tried to talkto my sisters, one of them doesn't really show dat she cares... the one dat does care is not home and have bigger problem to deal with... i dun wanna bother them.
my mum always said words saying dat it's my fault and i shud be more friendly.. but she doesn't really understand.. my mum is VERY friendly even with strangers so i dun think she has the same problem as me..
my brother is a different story.. firstly he's a guy..he won't understand.. secondly, he'slike my mum.. sooo friendly..
so what i need now is a friend... just someone to let all my feelings out so could live my teenage life not filled with tears...
i have always been a friend.. i listen, help and do everything i cud to make my friends happy.. so i know that all of them are my fren but am i their friend? do they see me as a friend? coz they don't really show it..
i wud LOVE it if my fren comes to me when they're in trouble and need someone toalk to.. coz i want to be the person they can always rely on.. the problems is i dun have someone to do dat too..
THE PERFECT FRIEND
© S.J. McGrath
I thought I had found the perfect friend,
But it only took about a week for that to end,
I thought there was hope left in my life,
But as it turns out, it was only added strife,
I thought for once I had done something right,
But I quickly corrected that oversight,
I thought I wasn’t useless or a bore,
But I was all that and even more,
I thought there was a purpose to my days,
But that was only a very short phase,
I thought you weren’t like all the rest,
But like those before, you failed the test,
I thought you would stay with me, at least for a bit,
But you decided it was better just to quit,
I thought life was worth living for a moment in time,
But the life I wanted could never be mine,
I thought the hunger inside had been fed,
But now I know, I was just being misled.
And now I think I’ve found another perfect friend,
How long before my heart is broken again?dat poem suits me more than the first one... i better stop b4 i break my keyboard into pieces...
please ignore the TYPOs....
if you are or wants to be my friend, please comment.... i bet no one wud.. :'(
